Phobia, I supposed.

• Considering the fact that staying doesn't make much of a difference as leaving, I think I should send the letter to the school. Going to try for the very last time, or maybe second last time. This time nak tulis surat yang betul betul formal, make sure takda grammar error/kesalahan tatabahasa. Blergh, I just hate writing formal letters. I'll give an exception for ..just this one, this one time.

• Got MYR40 from school/PIBG for 'Pencapaian PMR Terbaik : 7A 1B' (or something like that) But anyway, I got back from school, hid the money somewhere in my drawer so that I won't spend the money for something else. Nahh, I won't touch it dah. Sooner or later I'll forget about it.. :D I'll spend the money, but not now!

• Ma asked me again about JB's concert, (she don't really know who's JB though :P ) Well, she told me to get the ticket, yeap, I might be going to JB's on 21st April. No kidding. But I don't feel like going though. I'm not really a big fan of JB so I think its not worth it. Heh, I'll just use the MYR188 for a new bag & a new shoes instead of spending it for JB. :P

• Yknw what, I just realised that, what I did last few months was wrong. I should've done that. The only thing I should do right now is pray to Allah, and I should've done that right after it happened. I mean like, to diss someone publicly is just wrong. What I did was wrong. I realised that, I am just another bitch, a hypocrite & useless & ugly bitch. Problems are meant to be solved by the person who's facing it, itself. Not to be shared with people on Twitter/FB.

At that very moment, as soon as I realised that, I reminded myself, not to repeat this again.

I never tried solving the problem that I was facing that time. All I ever did was, tweet about it.. tweet about it & tweet more about it. In the end, dia menang & she got everything.

• Funny how some people just love someone so that that someone will love him/her back. Then leaves them after they fell in love in him/her. Get it?? They just want to hurt you, thats all.

• What I'm trying to say is that, I just, I don't/won't trust people easily anymore because everytime I put my trust o someone, no matter who is he/she -friends, cousins, bestfriends, bestbestfriends, -they would eventually tell someone else. I'm afraid it would happen again. So, as for now, I just, I don't feel like telling/confessing/sharing my stories/feelings/thoughts to anyone.

HZ